Fearing Daddy's belt...

Why is it even though I LOVE the belt...ever since I met my Daddy for the first time last May I am AFRIDE of him using his belt on me??? gulps I mean I've only felt his belt twice, but I am afride of it... he didn't hurt me with it in the sense of making me fear it... I guess...ugh... I'm just confused on how come I LOVE the belt, but FEAR feeling my Daddy's belt on my bottom... sighs