Fearing Daddy's belt...

Why is it even though I LOVE the belt...ever since I met my Daddy for the first time last May I am AFRIDE of him using his belt on me??? gulps I mean I've only felt his belt twice, but I am afride of it... he didn't hurt me with it in the sense of making me fear it... I guess...ugh... I'm just confused on how come I LOVE the belt, but FEAR feeling my Daddy's belt on my bottom... sighs

I think I saved myself from more trouble with my Daddy today...

Wow...just about wrote myself another check with my Daddy that I don't need hanging over me sighs I am in sooo much trouble with my Daddy right now that I'm not supposed to talk to him UNTIL I know a date that I'm going to be going to see him on sighs Yet today I tried talking to him for awhile and then he called me out for it sighs Sooo not fair :( But I did good and stopped talking to him, because I don't need more trouble hanging over me with my Daddy right now :(

You know your in TROUBLE with your Daddy when...

...You've provoked him and lied to him and now he doesn't want to talk to you till your in person sighs :(

I messed up BIG time :( Why did I have to provoke and lie to my Daddy??? Is it because I really was testing him to see if he would give me a spanking to the point of fear???