Attitude and language and breaking rules

Well, I have to admit to my "Daddy" that I haven't had the greatest attitude lately and my language has been HORRIBLE lately too *sighs* I've been breaking my chore rule and my no swearing rule lately too :(

I'm not sure why I've been breaking rules lately either. I'm sure once my "Daddy" finds out that I have been breaking rules I'll hear about it, but I don't know when that will be, because he is working Monday thru Friday and he never gets online to talk to me at night anymore :( He does text me, but I know he can't deal with me like he would like to at work so I try to make him think that I've been a good girl, but then I guess that means I'm lying to him right? Which is something that I don't want to do so I guess I have to admit to my "Daddy" soon, that I've been a bad girl :(

I hope I actually get to meet with him in person soon though, because he PROMISED me that he was going to send me a bus ticket in Febuary to meet him, but he never did, he also never sent me a paddle that he was talking about sending me if I didn't start behaving. Hmmm, I wonder if this is only going to be on online thing? If it is, then I don't know how much longer I can do it, because I NEED something in real life even if its just every few months *sighs* I've been good about not meeting with anyone else to spank me so he has to give me credit for that :) But still I NEED something in real life, because self spanking and the other punishments I get aren't that great in getting me to behave better, because I go ALOT eaiser on myself then what he would I am sure and I am sure he realizes that too, but yeah... *glares and kicks wall*

Well, I'm going to go for a bit, I just thought I would update this before getting offline for a bit. Besides my bedtime is still Midnight right now and I'm trying my best to earn a later bedtime like I had when I first started talking to my "Daddy" :)